December 21, 2010

• Tomorrow is my last day.
  I have a lot of things running through my mind. I haven't been this restless since my mother's last divorce.
  I am in a predicament because I am not able to properly lay out my options.
  And these options are so hard to lay out because I have factors I must now consider that are beyond me and beyond my control.
  Although options are possible, and I am willing to take the risks. I will not only be held responsible for my own consequences, but it will lead to the potential consequence of others.
  I am very very upset with how this turned out and I hope to remain true to my intentions.
  I am in a predicament where oddly enough, the risk averse factor isn't me.
  I am seeing first handedly, the detrimental affects of risk averse behavior, and it is leading me to understand why, at times, taking risks are necessary.

  Dead End Road, the sign is so clear to me. Why isn't it just as obvious to everyone else?
  Perhaps it's my communication methods.
  My situation is delicate, I cannot come on too strong, because I will be perceived as rash and impulsive.
  I cannot take this situation delicately, because I will definitely meet the short end of the stick.

  Benefits and Consequences, i don't see them the way they see them.
  Just like how they can't see the dead end sign.
  What do I do? My time is running out, I knew this would happen. And my persistence wasn't enough to prepare me for this. I tried to be so prepared. I really tried.
  Now the tides are turning in, bringing the sea, and my boat is only half done.

  • 12:05 am
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