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  • So, how expectations change, I don't know if I want to hear back from my new team that I am getting full time more, or the anticipation from Moody's. -_- I love how everyone else seems to always have options, and I end up always only having one choice... if there's one thing I never have right, it's timing.

  • blah, I totally blew the cfa, time to wait for horrible results and December registration.

  • Interview with moody's in an hour. :-x

  • Meh didn't make it :( lol
    Quick to arrive and quick to disappear. But this was no opportunity cost. I learned a valuable lesson about myself... what really drove me to do it, was a motivation that I wasn't aware of. Or at least I didn't know how strong this motivation was.

    I don't want my personality to be a weakness, only a strength. It bothers the S#!t out of me when people think they have me all figured out, Prima wouldn't do this, or that, especially the "it's not in her to ____" ....

    Yes, it is a hindrance that I have a strong morale, that's not going to change. I will not purposely harm others for personal gain. I believe in self-control, I believe in leading by example, and I know that these are pillars to my existence among other things.

    Who I am, is an illiquid asset. Not a current liability. It will not be sold because it is the only intangible asset I possess where the market value of goodwill increases with a long standing maturity stage. And so long as who I am continues to evolve, adapt, and innovate while keeping my brand (the pillars to my existence), then my perceivable decline stage is not of the slightest concern.

    I did it because I can, because I can be anyone as long as I am still me.

  • So... here's a secret....

    I joined a beauty pageant and the semi-finals are this Saturday. Today was the dead-line to submit my 2 minute song that I will play on stage. Pretty much, I am going to keep this on the down - low as long as I can. A fellow Xangan friend of mine was actually the one to send me an application. I never thought I'd do it, and then I ended up submiting the application on the very last day. We only live once right? Why not try to make it to the big screen at least once? I was a nervous wreck at the audition though, I never knew my knees trembled when I'm nervous... that was definitely a first. And I thought it was weird that they asked everyone else these life-long questions, what are their goals, and ambitions in life. Why they felt they should win. I focused all my energy on thinking of answers to those... and when it was my turn. I was asked, what languages do I speak at home, why did I choose to audition in a pink colored bikini, and what animal would I be if I had a choice... oh yea, and... how does it feel to be mix. I'm hoping they just assumed my Chinese would be bad and that I couldn't answer difficult questions...

    wish me luck?

  • cfa, cfa, cfa, cfa

    I'm losing my head.

  • 我，天真的理想渺渺這樣消失了。
    最美好的， 理想的， 開心還放心的
    都是假的錯的。
    安心，根本不全在。
    原來一直來， 我沒有這個選擇。
    我好孤獨。
    這個問題不會有辦法解決。
    只有我一個人來等適合的機會解決一切。
    真讓我好心痛， 失望。 眼白白看住結果舒展。
    結果結果。。。
    這麼會。。。
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    作詞：SA: 崔惟楷 / Ryan Tedder 作曲：Ryan Tedder

    一天一天 重複上演 奔跑著卻沒有終點
    付出一切 拼湊一片 我期待生活有所改變
    可笑的他們 冷漠的臉 事不關己的語言
    我拼了命 奮力向前 把明天都實現
    我祈禱我能遇見 所謂完美的世界

    Is this all I've been waiting for?
    Is this all I've been searching for?
    我在追尋甚麼東西 原來不過都只是空氣
    So is this all I've been waiting for? Waiting for, waiting for....

    半開的眼 半醒的眠 思緒被困在夢裡面
    我想看見 卻看不見 是否已經到了極限
    我祈禱我能遇見 所謂完美的世界

    Is this all I've been waiting for?
    Is this all I've been searching for?
    我在追尋甚麼東西 原來不過都只是空氣
    So is this all I've been waiting for? Waiting for, waiting for....

    Is this all I've been waiting for?
    Is this all I've been searching for?
    我在追尋甚麼東西 原來不過都只是空氣
    So is this all I've been waiting for? Waiting for, waiting for....

    Is this all I've been waiting for?
    Is this all I've been searching for?
    我在追尋甚麼東西 原來不過都只是空氣
    So is this all I've been waiting for? Waiting for, waiting for....
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    (Translation)

    Day by day
    The same scenes are reenacted
    Running but without a destination

    Giving it all
    Putting it together
    I look forward to some changes in life

    They are fools,
    With such cold faces,
    Speaking a language of ignorance

    I give it my all,
    And race ahead,
    To realize my tomorrows

    I pray that I'll be able to meet,
    The professed perfect world

    IS THIS ALL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR?
    IS THIS ALL I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR?
    What am I looking for,
    It all turned out to just be air
    SO IS THIS ALL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR?
    WAITING FOR, WAITING FOR...

    Half-opened eyes,
    Half-awaken sleep,
    Thoughts that are meddled with dreams

    I wish to see,
    Yet I cannot see
    Am I at my limit?

    I pray that I'll be able to see,
    The professed perfect world

    IS THIS ALL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR?
    IS THIS ALL I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR?
    What am I looking for,
    It all turned out to just be air
    SO IS THIS ALL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR?
    WAITING FOR, WAITING FOR...

  • 無題詩
    相見時難別亦難，東風無力百花殘。
    春蠶到死絲方盡，蠟炬成灰淚始幹。
    曉鏡但愁雲鬢改，夜吟應覺月光寒。
    蓬山此去無多路，青鳥殷勤為探看。

    李商隱

  •   Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today and three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

    (Not quite today but close enough)

    1. I got to see my friends at their (and technically mine as well) graduation
    2. I have 2 jobs
    3. I got a tan :)

    so YES carol -_- not quite 30 days... more like 4 months... Feb - now. but i tried! hey ... a lot happened :P

  • Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
    Handball1
    Handball.
    Yyyyeh boy!