Day 1 – A photo of yourself with 10 facts about you.

1) I like cats
2) I spend too much time in my life trying to prove people wrong rather than proving me right.
3) I don’t believe in physical punishment as a means to corrective behavior.
4) On the contrary to popular Chinese belief, 4 is a lucky number for me.
5) <3 Food. <3 Noodles, Chocolate, Ice-cream, Bubble Tea, Broth, Maltesers, Pork Jerky, Chicken Tikka Masala, etc.
6) I strongly believe in self-control, but my artistic side loathes it. Mind over heart – 思 is a constant battle for me.
7) I hate to admit that I am not well-rounded. I TRY to be good at everything, but i’m just kinda sucky :/
8) I may slightly suffer from what Amy Farrah Fowler from The Big Bang Theory believes to be called “Penis Envy”
9) My friends are very important to me. I don’t think they really get it …
10) I am sick of using the word I but too am much 2 lazy to reword these facts.

Hmmm.
So my cousin Azn_Arol is doing this weird thing, we like to call it conforming So I guess I’ll do it too,
A month of Pr|ma! Joy oh joy.

Day 1 – A photo of yourself with 10 facts about you.
Day 2 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 3 – A photograph of you and your best friend(s).
Day 4 – Your favorite fictional character(s).
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years (or more) ago.
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – A screenshot of what you typically do online.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Day 9 – A photo of someone you’ve met the past half a year.
Day 10 – A photo of someone you admire.
Day 11 – Your favorite movie.
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
Day 13 – Your favorite song and song lyrics at the moment.
Day 14 – A TV show you are/were addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.
Day 19 – A crush.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you.
Day 23 – 15 more facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – Your favorite season and why.
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – A picture of your cellphone.
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today and three good things that have happened in the past 30 day

Happy belated birthday to Kitty and Lucy! Two of my closest bestest girlfriends ever

Promises

Lips singing in circles. What does it mean to make a promise to someone? Or to accept one? 愛你一生一世 (love you for life). Heard that before? Promises are made to assure someone that there is certainty in the future, that they will ensure a result with their own power. Promises are made for those afraid of loss, who have lost everything, or want everything.

Perhaps I am being too harsh, perhaps I should say they are made for those afraid of losing something important, or have lost something, or want something. And they entrust their future happiness into the hands of another.

That differs from commitment. Commitment is to “bind or obligate, as by pledge or assurance; pledge: to commit oneself to a promise; to be committed to a course of action.”

So to promise someone, is really to just assure someone that the future will be to their liking. Broken promises… sound kind of silly in that sense. Broken commitments seem much more fitting.

But why would anyone ask another to commit themselves to ensure their own happiness? Shouldn’t you first commit yourself? The future is uncertain. The only constants you can be sure of, are the choices you make.
Commit yourself, and you won’t need the promises of another to make you happy.

Happy Holidays Guys!

Hope everyone’s winter is filled with warmth and kindness
I got to spend X-mas with Sara Ju (豬仔), so I was very happy about that >.< I miss my little sis so much.
Issues from the previous post have been settled So now I can enjoy the holidays and I can’t wait to get my butt back to NY and see all my awesome friends, and possibly an old-time friend that I haven’t seen in a long time…

Yup! *hugs hug hugs* From u to me, and me to u

Tomorrow is my last day.
I have a lot of things running through my mind. I haven’t been this restless since my mother’s last divorce.
I am in a predicament because I am not able to properly lay out my options.
And these options are so hard to lay out because I have factors I must now consider that are beyond me and beyond my control.
Although options are possible, and I am willing to take the risks. I will not only be held responsible for my own consequences, but it will lead to the potential consequence of others.
I am very very upset with how this turned out and I hope to remain true to my intentions.
I am in a predicament where oddly enough, the risk averse factor isn’t me.
I am seeing first handedly, the detrimental affects of risk averse behavior, and it is leading me to understand why, at times, taking risks are necessary.

Dead End Road, the sign is so clear to me. Why isn’t it just as obvious to everyone else?
Perhaps it’s my communication methods.
My situation is delicate, I cannot come on too strong, because I will be perceived as rash and impulsive.
I cannot take this situation delicately, because I will definitely meet the short end of the stick.

Benefits and Consequences, i don’t see them the way they see them.
Just like how they can’t see the dead end sign.
What do I do? My time is running out, I knew this would happen. And my persistence wasn’t enough to prepare me for this. I tried to be so prepared. I really tried.
Now the tides are turning in, bringing the sea, and my boat is only half done.

Handed in my resignation letter today. Let’s see how this plays out >.<

其實你有冇諗過。。。 如果喺你人生曾經好重要嘅關鍵，你揀咗唔同嘅路行， 結果會點呢？
如果如果如果， 咁多個如果。 諗翻起我自己嘅人生，真係好容易畀某一個情況只中以命運轉軚。
目前為此我個命運又會不知不覺間跌喺我手上度。嚟種運氣和機會唔多人有㗎。
其實諗深點。會唔會係拜我所賜呢？
若果我個本性冇咁堅持立場、咁癡情天真、同埋脾性又咁死硬，
或者我個命運未必會變得咁穩定性。
我個意思係一個人嘅命運好大嘅一部分係又你嘅人格和人性以判斷。
因為人格和人性會影響你所選擇嘅嘢， 你D選擇又當熱會影響你嘅命運啦。
但係再諗深一層， 命運真係唔係咁簡單。。。
雖然我好想話我所行嘅路，行得咁鬼順係靠智慧和自制 哈哈！
不過有時候，做算你揀得啱，都唔代表你把握倒命運。
只所係命運、我覺得。。。唔單止周圍一個人嘅優點缺點。
重有你所表達出嘅情，隱藏嘅情，仲有創建嘅縁份因如此。
重有好多好多個起因。 不過我主要發現咗做係…命運就係因果。
一個好詳細人與人織成嘅網，
或者畀一個冇咁強性嘅人嚟講，可以變成一種迷宫。
因爲一個冇咁強性嘅人唔識用因果嘅理念嚟去了解自己嘅環境，
控制自己嘅情然後感化自己嘅命運。

Excellent news. Adam’s going to Brooklyn College next semester! I’m quite happy for him So staying in North Carolina now will be pointless… Looks like I’m movin to Brooklyn in January!

I’m so sad i didn’t do anything for Halloween this year.

My first Halloween where dressing up would have been.. pointless, no girls to go with, no little sister, no party, no bar scene… no nothing.
Bah humbug.